you say awesome.

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Thanks for the CD..it's sweet. In a very innocent kind of way :p

1)Breathe- Telepopmusik
Butterflies dancing in my tummy. It was my first time to pop a pill..this is the first song i heard. I’m now remembering KB and BJ. May 7, 2004. who can forget firsts.

2)Landslide- Smashing Pumpkins
Ive had this song for ages in my ipod. I just never listened to what it really meant. Ahhhh..changing seasons of my life.
SEE also: Erase and Rewind.

3)Who knows.
I never heard this song before. But the lyrics..i just remember this: I’m not good with words and nothing has to end. It reminds me of you..so YOU.

4)Flightless Bord – Iron & Wine
Just googled. It says it’s about America..land of the free. Yeahhhhp, go figure.

5)The Heart of the Matter – India Arie
“And all the things I thought I’d figure out, I have to learn again” This line reminds me of one of my favoritest quotes of all time..”We ask why these things keep on happening to us, always the same. God says: My child, it will keep on repeating, because you refuse to learn.”

6)Turn Your Lights Down Low – Colbie Caillat and Justin Young
I’m not quite sure if it really is them, but this is such an amazing version. And their voices, warm in a sexy kind of way.

7)Inevitable – Anberlin
I was just listening to Amsterdam this morning. I love this band. “ I wanna be your last, first kiss” Last night, I just wanted to kiss you..but I didn’t.

8)I’d Rather be With You – Joshia Radin
Sweetness all over. “I’d rather be with you, say you want the same thing too.”

9)Electric Feel – MGMT
After a few beats, I knew it was this song. “Plug it in and change the world, you are my electric girl”

10 )Little Bit – Lykke Li
Tell me it’s okay to daydream that you sing this to me, and that I’m in your head when you hear it..i still like the Drake and Mickey version better.
SEE also: Hands down, I'm too proud, for love. But with eyes shut,It's you I'm thinking of. But how we move from A to B it can't be up to me..cause you don't know whi I was before you.

11)Rockin’ that Shit – The Dream
Total Coolness…she’s rocking that shit like ooohhh, baby. There’s nothing I can say.

12)Something Special – Usher
Ive never heard this song before as well. Usher is too cool.

13)You Used to Love Me – Faith Evans
A broken love affair. Whell, what else to say.

14)Kiss Kiss Kiss – Ananda Project
Ahhhhhh, I just want to kiss YOU. I wonder if you feel the same way too.

15)Voices – Dario G
This is from the movie “The Beach” I just wanna swim right now..with you would be nice. In the island where they were, that would be totally awesome.
Nanananana yeah yeah, nananana yeah.

16)Beached – Orbital
"I still believe in paradise but now at least I know it's not some place you can look forcause it's not where you go,it's how you feel for a moment in your life.
And if you find that moment, it will last forever.
ENOUGH SAID.

17)Bleeeeeeeep. Makeout song? Hah.

18)Dare You to Move – Switchffot
YES, hit me where it hurts.
"Welcome to the fallout.
Welcome to resistance.
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be."

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notes from outer space.
yes,sitting, staring.
thoughts running through my head..i miss writing. i miss scribbling inner thoughts.
so here it goes.

she's been in my head..lately. everyday actually. i can't decifer if she's the first thing that pops into my waking mind but i think it might be so. no,i refuse to use a word to capture what my emotions are. one day,i'll let her know..but not anytime soon.

it may be the pleasure of wanting her, of wanting and longing something that refuses to stay within my reach. she knows better than to give in. why did i refuse the moment when she almost did..i believe it might be because i know better too. old enough to know, young enough to not care..and it scares me. this life scares me and excites me.

one by one, one by one..my head runs way faster than my ability to type right now. ahhhh..my mind, my inner dwelling..step by step, i say.

i like her. that's a fact. im drawn..but for what reason, loneliness maybe? not. iv'e been thinking of her ever since..in a way i wouldn't want to admit. but that's the truth..and the truth is always better to know..for your own good.

should i? no. would i? yes. that's a huge difference right there.

proposed endings:
A)she gives in. i give in...i stay with the other still. keep her for as long as i can in a place where i want her to be..she falls,maybe i do, maybe i don't.. i leave,run back to the other..she's hurt.
B)she continues to stay..as a friend. until she finds someone else to run off with..i get hurt in a possessive and selfish kind of way.
C)she falls, i fall..we both do. the world will crush us. they won't accept..we both get hurt.
D)i play, she plays..emotional strings are strummed..i hope she gives in. we fuck. then either or both fall..the other left undone.
E)we stay friends..keep the emotional high. flirt. play. and make no mistake.

you choose.

i say, be undercover lovers. enjoy the moment of having each other. never tell a soul. fuck good. linger. unlearn jealousy. unlearn love. unlearn hangups,broken hearts. leave a good memory. no permanent scar. understand the rules, and play by it.

ahhhhh. i just want YOU.